Seriously....again?!?! What is this! I'm so frustrated with myself. I'm not eating bad but I'm just not motivated. It's like the end is so far away that I'm just disheartened. I know the drill set mini goals do things you enjoy, blah blah blah...but it's such a roller coaster. highs and lows...I feel like in the world of weight loss I'm bi-polar! I go from pure energy and let's kick ass to the next day woe is me and I'll never get there. urg!
That's all I have to say...just needed to vent...off to drink more water!
Friday, May 28, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Lisa where are you...we miss you :(
Well it's amazing how much I can say I'm on the ball and not BE on the ball LOL. I keep trying and keep finding myself overeating. Well I didn't overeat so much as I wanted to.
Yesterday I had yogurt, orange, a few mouthfuls of an awful salad, yogurt with granola and berries, whole wheat croissant (felt like it), egg scramble with peas and feta and toast with becel, then a strawberry smoothie.
At lunch I went to the store to get a chicken wrap but they didn't have any of the light ones I like so I got a salad instead but took a few bites and didn't really like it so much...so I threw it out. One thing I have to mention and I'm soooo proud of this...I wanted a chocolate bar soooo bad. They were on two for a dollar and I really wanted it...but I said no and grabbed the yogurt with granola and berries instead. That didn't quite curb my sweet tooth but thank goodness I didn't have any change in my purse cause I would have gone to the vending machine for a treat if I had. I should have been strong but I was weak...I made it through the afternoon without a snack as my other orange was all dried up and sour yuck. I got home had the egg scramble my hubby so kindly made for me and rushed out the door to take Becca to dance class. It was a crazy busy evening and we didn't get home until 9pm of course then I sat down and watched BL and was super snacky. But Kevin refused to let me make any popcorn (cause I can't just eat popcorn I need to have shakers on it LOL) so I made a strawberry smoothie and it was the best one yet...so yummy.
Today I make no promises but I will try like I did yesterday. Again I need to get a lunch as we forgot in all our travels last night to pick up lunch meat and milk LOL. So here's hoping the chocolate cravings are at bay :)
Now to get some water into me.
Hope my Amigos are doing well...they are usually stronger than me when it comes to keeping the cravings at bay. LISA WHERE ARE YOU? I want to read your endorphin filled blogs!
Yesterday I had yogurt, orange, a few mouthfuls of an awful salad, yogurt with granola and berries, whole wheat croissant (felt like it), egg scramble with peas and feta and toast with becel, then a strawberry smoothie.
At lunch I went to the store to get a chicken wrap but they didn't have any of the light ones I like so I got a salad instead but took a few bites and didn't really like it so much...so I threw it out. One thing I have to mention and I'm soooo proud of this...I wanted a chocolate bar soooo bad. They were on two for a dollar and I really wanted it...but I said no and grabbed the yogurt with granola and berries instead. That didn't quite curb my sweet tooth but thank goodness I didn't have any change in my purse cause I would have gone to the vending machine for a treat if I had. I should have been strong but I was weak...I made it through the afternoon without a snack as my other orange was all dried up and sour yuck. I got home had the egg scramble my hubby so kindly made for me and rushed out the door to take Becca to dance class. It was a crazy busy evening and we didn't get home until 9pm of course then I sat down and watched BL and was super snacky. But Kevin refused to let me make any popcorn (cause I can't just eat popcorn I need to have shakers on it LOL) so I made a strawberry smoothie and it was the best one yet...so yummy.
Today I make no promises but I will try like I did yesterday. Again I need to get a lunch as we forgot in all our travels last night to pick up lunch meat and milk LOL. So here's hoping the chocolate cravings are at bay :)
Now to get some water into me.
Hope my Amigos are doing well...they are usually stronger than me when it comes to keeping the cravings at bay. LISA WHERE ARE YOU? I want to read your endorphin filled blogs!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Monday nope Tuesday
Well it was a long weekend so today feels like Monday but it's Tuesday already :) I didn't stick to my eating every 2 hours over the weekend...I was busy gardening and doing chores and forgot to eat often. So when I did stop for lunch or dinner I was famished and ended up eating way too fast and too much and fairly carb heavy. Didn't get as much water as I would have liked either. But I was ACTIVE all weekend long. Sore today really. I was busy from the moment I woke up until I went to bed for 3 days straight (although I only marked it as 6 hours of exercise mainly because some of it didn't feel like exercise even though I can definitely feel it). I am up in weight...I guess lack of water and some junk food made the difference. Although I didn't have too much junk this weekend...I'm very proud of that :)
Today it's eat every 2 hours (Already had a yogurt and then an orange just now). Gotta get going on my water...none so far. and as for activity...this week will be more chore related and maybe some weight machine on my legs. I haven't used that in a long time and I know I'm getting good exercise overall.
We had dirt delivered yesterday to level our backyard out so we can put up our pool for the summer WOOHOO!!!! I'll be adding swimming into the mix in a week or so...although it's only 16 feet across the pool...I can't really do much in the way of laps but I'll get some water aerobics in for sure. Make it fun!!! So this week will be shovelling and moving dirt...that'll be good upper body work :) and weight machine on the legs...full body workouts :)
I'm not ready for the 5K in 1 week and 4 days!!!! but I'll do the best I can either way :)
Three Amigos are ready to kick this into high gear :)
Today it's eat every 2 hours (Already had a yogurt and then an orange just now). Gotta get going on my water...none so far. and as for activity...this week will be more chore related and maybe some weight machine on my legs. I haven't used that in a long time and I know I'm getting good exercise overall.
We had dirt delivered yesterday to level our backyard out so we can put up our pool for the summer WOOHOO!!!! I'll be adding swimming into the mix in a week or so...although it's only 16 feet across the pool...I can't really do much in the way of laps but I'll get some water aerobics in for sure. Make it fun!!! So this week will be shovelling and moving dirt...that'll be good upper body work :) and weight machine on the legs...full body workouts :)
I'm not ready for the 5K in 1 week and 4 days!!!! but I'll do the best I can either way :)
Three Amigos are ready to kick this into high gear :)
Friday, May 21, 2010
something new
Okay so I decided to try something new yesterday. My friend has been diagnosed as hypoglycaemic and has to eat every 2 hours. So I thought I wonder if that would work with me. Instead of having 3 main meals and some snacks I would try eating every 2 hours and see if I craved bad stuff or if the healthy things were fine. The trick is to eat more times a day but smaller portions and keep it healthy and nutritious. I know that yesterday was the first day so it could have been sheer determination that factored into the success of it so we are going to try this all weekend and see if I can stick to it.
Here's how yesterday went:
8am - yogurt
10am - orange
12pm - chicken caesar salad mmmm
went for a walk at the lake for an hour
2pm - blueberries
4pm - didn't bring enough food oops
6pm (became 7pm) - went out for dinner had a grilled chicken breast on a bun with sweet potato fries
no night time snack...didn't need it surprisingly
did Wii fit step for 20 minutes and had more water
drank a total of 4 litres of water yesterday
Felt completely amazing all day...not hungry (well just before dinner at the 5 hour mark of no food I started to get hungry which is why I ate sooo fast and felt sick after but I did Wii fit and felt better after that)
This morning I weighed the same as I did yesterday morning which is fine as I did 80 minutes of cardio yesterday and exercise makes me stall on weight loss temporarily.
Honestly I think I can do this every 2-3 hour eating thing...I'm eating whole real foods and don't feel hungry or light headed because my body is getting what it needs and I don't feel the need to snack on crap :)
We'll see how today goes...
Plan for today:
8am - shredded wheat and milk (done)
10am - yogurt
12pm - turkey sandwich
2pm - strawberries
4pm - orange
6pm - (haven't decided on dinner yet but it'll be something yummy)
8pm - carrots and ranch dressing
Other obstacles this weekend - it's the long weekend and we are visiting friends and family. Just have to go prepared :)
Here's how yesterday went:
8am - yogurt
10am - orange
12pm - chicken caesar salad mmmm
went for a walk at the lake for an hour
2pm - blueberries
4pm - didn't bring enough food oops
6pm (became 7pm) - went out for dinner had a grilled chicken breast on a bun with sweet potato fries
no night time snack...didn't need it surprisingly
did Wii fit step for 20 minutes and had more water
drank a total of 4 litres of water yesterday
Felt completely amazing all day...not hungry (well just before dinner at the 5 hour mark of no food I started to get hungry which is why I ate sooo fast and felt sick after but I did Wii fit and felt better after that)
This morning I weighed the same as I did yesterday morning which is fine as I did 80 minutes of cardio yesterday and exercise makes me stall on weight loss temporarily.
Honestly I think I can do this every 2-3 hour eating thing...I'm eating whole real foods and don't feel hungry or light headed because my body is getting what it needs and I don't feel the need to snack on crap :)
We'll see how today goes...
Plan for today:
8am - shredded wheat and milk (done)
10am - yogurt
12pm - turkey sandwich
2pm - strawberries
4pm - orange
6pm - (haven't decided on dinner yet but it'll be something yummy)
8pm - carrots and ranch dressing
Other obstacles this weekend - it's the long weekend and we are visiting friends and family. Just have to go prepared :)
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
bingefest
Okay. On a new resolve for the whole weight loss thing. Yesterday I had chocolate and peanuts after…but I had 3 things of chocolate (reese pieces, kit kat chunky, maltesers…small bag yay for me) and then the honey roasted peanuts. I binged completely. But I thought about it this morning…I think I needed that complete binge…I was eating more and more at night…I was having more and more little snacks here and there and not feeling bad about it which was not good. This time I ate so much I felt sick to the point I couldn’t eat dinner…I made myself have some toast last night.
This morning I woke up and thought I’d be starving as I hadn’t had dinner except for toast but I wasn't hungry and I still felt sick. Just overly full…the thought of junk right now is turning my stomach. So I had some Shredded Wheat and some strawberries and it was awesome. I’m craving healthy food today…which I don’t know that that’s ever happened before. So this is good.
I think I needed to binge to get it out of my system rather than saying I was okay and eating junk here and there in hiding…now I don’t want it…not even a little bit. This is where I needed to be…not rock bottom but past the point of wanting junk…don’t know if that made sense to you or not. I was having more popcorn at night and then two days of chips…not good not a good path at all. I was having the bad stuff...more than was good for me but not so much that I was sick of it or feeling guilty...I was trying to justify it. I was trying to convince myself that I was gaining weight again because of silly things...not that I was sabotaging myself like Daris on BL (funny that it happened to me the same day that they showed that eh Pitbull LOL). I had come to that conclusion before they aired that episode but I hadn't said it out loud...so I am now. I'm gaining weight because I'm eating shit and not eating the things my body needs!!!!
Today I had a healthy breakfast…I have more strawberries and an orange and I’m determined to eat on plan today. My friend who's on maternity leave is meeting a bunch of us for lunch today…I totally forgot last night when I said I’d take a salad for lunch. We are going to Pita palace…so I’m going to have grilled chicken and lettuce with practically no dressing and NO CHEESE especially no FETA! On a whole wheat wrap…I’ve planned it out. Then I’ll come back and have my strawberries and yogurt. Or maybe I’ll have the yogurt before I go so I don’t overeat…and then have strawberries when I get back to my desk. I’m determined to do this!!! It’s all my choices not anyone else’s. I choose my own path! I could not go for lunch and go on my walk but then I'm avoiding and not facing things. I want to face it and conquer it!!! I know it's not a once and for all thing because I will have to make these tough choices everyday...but I WANT to do it today...to prove it to myself. I feel strong today. Crap I haven't had any water and wanted have had a litre by now...better get crackin'!!!
This morning I woke up and thought I’d be starving as I hadn’t had dinner except for toast but I wasn't hungry and I still felt sick. Just overly full…the thought of junk right now is turning my stomach. So I had some Shredded Wheat and some strawberries and it was awesome. I’m craving healthy food today…which I don’t know that that’s ever happened before. So this is good.
I think I needed to binge to get it out of my system rather than saying I was okay and eating junk here and there in hiding…now I don’t want it…not even a little bit. This is where I needed to be…not rock bottom but past the point of wanting junk…don’t know if that made sense to you or not. I was having more popcorn at night and then two days of chips…not good not a good path at all. I was having the bad stuff...more than was good for me but not so much that I was sick of it or feeling guilty...I was trying to justify it. I was trying to convince myself that I was gaining weight again because of silly things...not that I was sabotaging myself like Daris on BL (funny that it happened to me the same day that they showed that eh Pitbull LOL). I had come to that conclusion before they aired that episode but I hadn't said it out loud...so I am now. I'm gaining weight because I'm eating shit and not eating the things my body needs!!!!
Today I had a healthy breakfast…I have more strawberries and an orange and I’m determined to eat on plan today. My friend who's on maternity leave is meeting a bunch of us for lunch today…I totally forgot last night when I said I’d take a salad for lunch. We are going to Pita palace…so I’m going to have grilled chicken and lettuce with practically no dressing and NO CHEESE especially no FETA! On a whole wheat wrap…I’ve planned it out. Then I’ll come back and have my strawberries and yogurt. Or maybe I’ll have the yogurt before I go so I don’t overeat…and then have strawberries when I get back to my desk. I’m determined to do this!!! It’s all my choices not anyone else’s. I choose my own path! I could not go for lunch and go on my walk but then I'm avoiding and not facing things. I want to face it and conquer it!!! I know it's not a once and for all thing because I will have to make these tough choices everyday...but I WANT to do it today...to prove it to myself. I feel strong today. Crap I haven't had any water and wanted have had a litre by now...better get crackin'!!!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
WE WON A GAME!!!
Well last night we had a double header 8:15 and 9:30pm were the start times. So I get home from work and Kevin makes dinner (sheppard's pie so yummy) of course now I'm all weighed down and ready to sleep or snuggle on the couch watching TV instead of running around. But I made this commitment and honestly I love it. So I get ready and go battle the mosquitoes at the diamonds. I get there...and my lazy want to stay home feeling disappeared instantly. The first team we played were the Raiders and they kicked our butts...not as bad as our first game of the season but bad enough...although we got a couple of runs in which felt great. I was played right field or rover depending on the inning...in the second I played Rover and caught a ball so she would have been out but then I dropped it...I was so mad at myself I went to through it to second and threw it way too high so I messed up that play...but that's okay. I learned from it...I also think I need a smaller glove...we'll see I'm going to play around with mine to see if I can get it to fit better. So we felt okay after that game...not a win but some definite improvements we are starting to mesh as a team I think.
Then the second game...felt awesome. We were playing a really young team and thought we'd be creamed but their pitcher bless her heart used to pitch windmill...so she kept walking us as her pitches were too low and when she tried to pitch them higher (has to have an arc between 6-12 feet) she would miss the plate...Also we played better as well so that helped the cause too. I had another flub in that game...not in the field. I hit the ball but popped it up infield and swore the pitcher was going to catch it so I didn't run like I should have...now i know do NOT watch the ball just run and listen to the coaches that's what they are there for. Cause she dropped it and I would have made it to first had I ran first...but I waited and she rallied and got it to first before I could get there and just before I got there...I was really mad at myself for that one...but we won 5 to 1!!!!! yay us!!!! It was really nice to have that win for our confidence. Next week we have a 7pm game and they all want to go out for drinks after...I'll go but just have my lemon water :)
So I came home and had a snack a small bowl of sun chips...not the best but that's okay. I was up a bit this morning but c'est la vie. I'll figure it out...my body wants to store today so be it. I also know I'm retaining some major water...or I was yesterday for sure...I drank 3.5 litres and hardly pee'd and my lips were dry and chapping...hopefully the lakes of water again today can solve that.
Plan for today - work, take Becca to jazz, step on the Wii while watching BL :) It's the marathon episode.
Time for a nap (I wish)
Then the second game...felt awesome. We were playing a really young team and thought we'd be creamed but their pitcher bless her heart used to pitch windmill...so she kept walking us as her pitches were too low and when she tried to pitch them higher (has to have an arc between 6-12 feet) she would miss the plate...Also we played better as well so that helped the cause too. I had another flub in that game...not in the field. I hit the ball but popped it up infield and swore the pitcher was going to catch it so I didn't run like I should have...now i know do NOT watch the ball just run and listen to the coaches that's what they are there for. Cause she dropped it and I would have made it to first had I ran first...but I waited and she rallied and got it to first before I could get there and just before I got there...I was really mad at myself for that one...but we won 5 to 1!!!!! yay us!!!! It was really nice to have that win for our confidence. Next week we have a 7pm game and they all want to go out for drinks after...I'll go but just have my lemon water :)
So I came home and had a snack a small bowl of sun chips...not the best but that's okay. I was up a bit this morning but c'est la vie. I'll figure it out...my body wants to store today so be it. I also know I'm retaining some major water...or I was yesterday for sure...I drank 3.5 litres and hardly pee'd and my lips were dry and chapping...hopefully the lakes of water again today can solve that.
Plan for today - work, take Becca to jazz, step on the Wii while watching BL :) It's the marathon episode.
Time for a nap (I wish)
Monday, May 17, 2010
Monday Monday
Happy Monday everyone,
Well it's only the beginning and I feel great!!! Down a bit more this morning so I'm only a little bit heavier than I was at two weeks ago....almost back there!!! YAY! Right now I don't see it as losing weight so much as getting back to where I was...then the real loss begins again :)
So sticking with the taking it easier approach so far so good. Yesterdays food was great...wise choices...just had some popcorn last night (fairly late) with shakers so I'd likely be down more if I didn't have all that sodium. No biggie...drinking lakes of water today :)
Yesterday I didn't get any formal exercise in but I did do a lot in the form of chores. I gardened a bit, Kevin and I put up the cover on the gazebo out back and did some general tidying of the back yard. Also did some laundry, tidying of the house. And then Kevin had a double header so we went and watched that. First of all it's a fair hike to get from the parking lot to the diamonds which I love cause I'm working my way there :) Then I did alot of running after kids and holding babies...some of the guys bring their kids when the wives can't come and the rest of us watch them for them. I don't mind this at all as it keeps me on my feet and moving!!! So pretty much I didn't sit down yesterday until I got home at 9pm (I dropped Kevin and Becca off at home for showers and bed for her while I went to the grocery store) Yes I sat in the car but it's not the same LOL. I didn't stop going until 9pm and honestly it was great. I didn't feel like I was in a rush or anything all day I just kept moving.
Today is back to work so pretty much sitting at my desk all day...but that's okay I'm usually pretty good with getting my water in at work!!! Water water water!
Tonight I have a double header 8:15 and 9:30! It should be fun! I'll likely get home shower and collapse into bed LOL. Which remind me I need to buy bug spray today...saw the mosquitoes out yesterday...urg bugs suck!!!! But baseball is so much fun that it outways the annoying bugs.
Feeling great emotionally this week...back to being me again.
Well it's only the beginning and I feel great!!! Down a bit more this morning so I'm only a little bit heavier than I was at two weeks ago....almost back there!!! YAY! Right now I don't see it as losing weight so much as getting back to where I was...then the real loss begins again :)
So sticking with the taking it easier approach so far so good. Yesterdays food was great...wise choices...just had some popcorn last night (fairly late) with shakers so I'd likely be down more if I didn't have all that sodium. No biggie...drinking lakes of water today :)
Yesterday I didn't get any formal exercise in but I did do a lot in the form of chores. I gardened a bit, Kevin and I put up the cover on the gazebo out back and did some general tidying of the back yard. Also did some laundry, tidying of the house. And then Kevin had a double header so we went and watched that. First of all it's a fair hike to get from the parking lot to the diamonds which I love cause I'm working my way there :) Then I did alot of running after kids and holding babies...some of the guys bring their kids when the wives can't come and the rest of us watch them for them. I don't mind this at all as it keeps me on my feet and moving!!! So pretty much I didn't sit down yesterday until I got home at 9pm (I dropped Kevin and Becca off at home for showers and bed for her while I went to the grocery store) Yes I sat in the car but it's not the same LOL. I didn't stop going until 9pm and honestly it was great. I didn't feel like I was in a rush or anything all day I just kept moving.
Today is back to work so pretty much sitting at my desk all day...but that's okay I'm usually pretty good with getting my water in at work!!! Water water water!
Tonight I have a double header 8:15 and 9:30! It should be fun! I'll likely get home shower and collapse into bed LOL. Which remind me I need to buy bug spray today...saw the mosquitoes out yesterday...urg bugs suck!!!! But baseball is so much fun that it outways the annoying bugs.
Feeling great emotionally this week...back to being me again.
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